Brrrrrrr

January 30th, 2015

Since last July, I have managed to keep myself busy enough but there have been hours lost. The guilt builds then wanes as I find another fulfilling task that could just have been chalked up as mundane. Seems like my latest ones have been to use up perishables in some recipe. So, I decide to google a recipe. It's awesome. I'd throw away my cookbooks if I knew the internet was always there. Hence, I made biscuits with heavy cream. So much for the diet but I didn't waste the heavy cream. Yesterday, I made soup out of fresh spinach with hot turkey sausage.

Now, the wind is blowing at over 20 mph and the snow is settling. I still do not want to venture out to the local music scene. It means a late night and driving in crappy weather. Even taking a taxi could be risky. I want my toes and especially my fingers for when I can't see, I'll be jammin' on my guitar.

Jerry has been working insane hours since last September. Then, he knew he was offered a promotion and additionally, equipment was breaking. That's the unpredictable factor he faces. No matter what science they understand, maintenance doesn't always cooperate. After a happy hour of celebrating the success of this, within an hour the phone rings to say the latest installation has gone wrong. It's after 8 pm, a 12 hour day, and he is not home yet. Really, do we have to go out into the blizzard like conditions.

My friend lost her husband December 2nd. I was about to call her tomorrow for her birthday. She emails me the latest. Her sister in law died of a similar condition only 45 days later! Her son is a bit of a wanderer and she's not heard from him since the latest 2 to 3 foot snow storm in the North East! My friend lives in the country. Uses a generator for electricity. Has a wood stove. Water lines are freezing and she's having to deal with this alone. Her closest neighbour, friend since high school, has left for FL this week. So when I call and do not reach her, I start to panic. I text a mutual friend who lives 5 miles from her and she's able to reach her and make sure she's okay. Whew, it's a long drive for me. Close to 50 miles. I'd do it though.

It's rare I get on here but felt like I needed to vent. Thanks for listening.

8:05 pm

It's been over 4 years since I created this blog. I guess I haven't wanted to say much. More likely, facebook has been an easy way to connect. But then I see the blogs of my 2 young friends, 44 & 42, who both have cancer. It's a private way to communicate with those closest to you. Not everyone has the best sense when commenting. Even on here, it can be "not what the doctor ordered." For now, I have nothing to expand upon. Just for the record, I've made an entry on a rainy Saturday. My one day a week off schedule, leaves me little time to reflect.

Fall's Beauty

As I lay awake in bed this am, the sky was overcast. There were 2 birds in the tree I could see through the skylight. They seemed to be interacting, as one would jump to another branch, although only a twig, it would sway in the wind. Then another bird arrived, and yet another. Soon they flew away as the raindrops started pelting the window, louder and louder. It looked to be a rainy day ahead. Surrounded by windows, I saw some break in the clouds and the sun trying to forge thru. Before I rose, there was rays of warmth on the sheets and I felt my mind open to what the outside could bring me today.